Thursday, May 13, 2010

Can this be the doorway to freedom?

I watched Oprah yesterday afternoon. I was skeptical about another book about weight loss. I planned on sitting there talking back to the TV with cryptic comments and snide remarks. Instead I found myself listening and at a certain point when a statement was made about the division between our self in real time and our spiritual self and a longing to experience that one moment of awe, wonder, universal love, what ever you want to call it that many of us have experienced one way or another, I found myself with tears running down my face.
I thought about starting another blog that would deal with the book and issues about life, weight, self esteem, etc and then I realized that I couldn't do that. This is me. This blog is about who I am, what I am working on, creating, thinking about, loving and just being. The people that have found this blog and come back to read it seem to be getting something from it.
My struggles with being a spiritual human being in this world are probably like most of you. If you don't think of yourself as a spiritual being then just hang in there I'll probably be talking about digging in the garden or painting by the next post.
There is a disconnect for many of us. We try very hard to be spiritual and then find that hours, days might go by when we haven't even felt that closest to "that which can not be named" or that "universal oneness". We have gotten so caught up in our getting through our daily lives that we haven't had time to feel that connection. And, for many of us, while dealing with the ups and downs of the daily "grind" we feed our emotions with food to dampen them, push them away for a minute or two, try to forget, just have a moment with the cupcake.
I'm not saying that the book Women, Food and God by Geneen Roth is the answer to our prayers. I will say that after 30 years of constantly having to deal with weight ups and downs, health issues, etc. I am willing to take a different approach.
WHY? Because, the other approaches haven't worked FOR GOOD. What I mean is that I might have been successful following guidelines, rules, having will power, staying on top of things but it has slid at times. Sometimes all the way down the hill.
So, in my book, something isn't working.
I have no time for those of you that want to stand in my face and tell me to suck it up, eat less, move more and I'll lose weight. Just keep on moving to another blog if that's how you feel. You are just going to get tired of me and want to smack me.
I just want to let you know that I'm looking into this whole issue and her book and how it relates to me. The last five years I have KNOWN from a deep level of my being that CREATING and my SOUL are tied together. I have also known that some deep held belief's that I have hold me back or have held me back from parts of the creation process. For example not feeling that my work is quality or of value to anybody else but me. I've been surprised when family members have wanted or commented in a positive way about something I have created. They aren't just being nice to Mama, they really seem to mean it and I'm surprised. WHY?
If you follow me you know that I give things a shot, if it doesn't work I tell you and try something else. The Temporal Tapping works for me. I'm using it now to try to find the best positive statement for me to work on this disconnect between my spiritual self and my physical self.
In her book Geneen begins with the most basic concept:
" The way you eat is inseparable from your core beliefs about being alive.
You relationship with food is an exact mirror of your feelings about love, fear, anger, meaning, transformation and yes even what ever name, you give to your higher source."

I am a spiritual being in physical form and I'm here for a reason. It's not up for debate with me.

So, stay tuned, if you are interested. I have no idea when I'll comment again about this but you can be sure there will be more, on this subject. This is my life.

:)Bea Who now more than ever needs to create.


  1. That sounds like a book I may have to get. I can't wait to hear more about your views on it. The things you said - girl we could be soul sisters! Have a great rest of the week. Hugs!

  2. One of the points that Oprah made was this is the kind of book that you have to read line by line. The guidelines won't work if you don't GET the message. Good luck. I'll be doing a lot of underlining in my book, for sure. :)Bea

  3. Bea,

    A bit philosophical today?

  4. Well, Georgie, sometimes you get the ham, the sweet potatoes and the GRITS on the side. :)Bea

  5. Haven't heard of the book, but sounds interesting. I did hear and get the spiritual thing. Someone came up to me around 4 years ago and grabbed my arm, they then preceded to tell me that God wanted more for me than I wanted for myself. It was time to change how I thought. I barely knew this person and was going through some rough emotional times. I felt like it was a sign. Something I should notice. I started my nightly talks with God then. Every night, rain, cold, heat I have a little conversation with God. These are changing my life. I am learning to access a part of me I have not recognized in a long time. It sounds like you are accessing things also.

  6. I told you to get those red cowboy boots, woman! Sheesh!
    I am in on this "secret"
    Happy journey!

  7. This sounds like the start of an interesting journey...

  8. You say that you drink 2 quarts of water a day - right here might be the problem. I find I get enough liquids in my coffee, tea and apple juice - a little more during our harsh summers.

    Half a gallon of water on top of your daily coffee and whatnot is too much and will definitely bloat you.

    As for spirituality - I believe in being kind to people (and even that might pass) and that's about it. Actually I'm not quite sure what spirituality is. But an interesting post.

  9. Another post to make us think. Great job Bea. I will look for your continuing posts on this subject.

  10. Thanks for having the courage to be open and real. As you and I have discussed many times before, being authentic in real time is a challenge that many people can not face--and have difficulty knowing how to react to. such moments are priceless gifts that often connect with people in ways we will never know. Don't lose your tenacity --your will, if nothing else, WILL find the answer you are searching for. I am sure of it.


  11. Hubby and I have been tying our diets more to our "spiritualness", too. Our belief that the earth and nature are bigger than us and that we should do what we can in our everyday lives to leave this world a little better than we found it had motivated us to go more organic, free range, and less processed. In fact, today we are off to get our first CSA share and to visit a local farm co-op. I feel very at peace thinking about this and believe it will help us to be healthier and to lose weight. Certainly being at peace with yourself and what you eat will help. You are right about the cupcake and for many of us, it isn't so different than a stiff drink when we turn to it as an escape mechanism.

  12. I am like more books ...I missed the Oprah so I will have to catch the rerun...but she did make some valid points more diets! Imagine and lIve in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

  13. An interesting post Bea, I hope something works for you, it is so hard. I can understand your reaction (the tears). I wonder where you'll go with it?